man.
what a day
one word : Disapointed

i feel that sick feeling again

totally fucked up
we lost our agenda for the day
thats sad
we failed as friends
as least thats how i feel
come on guys its a birthday day celebration
its a total killer when you just leave half way or do some shit
i thought we were out to celebrate a birthday
not do some other stuff
but i guess it turned out stupid
its okay for me but
i'm sure it would have suck being the birthday girl

whatever man its over now
my birthday is up next
it better not be fucked up
it wont cause i'm the one doing the planning and the invites this time

i've managed to acheive the 3 things i wanted to do before i turned 16
thats great.
some not as good as i thought it would be
but hey at least i acheived my goals.

everything just feels weird now
i'm waiting for a message which seems to be quite bad
but i've got no idea whats in it.
come on..
i want to read for good or worse.

learnt many things this weekend

one of which is

dont put in too much in to something
people take each other for granted way too much and too often
even without noticing it

thats sad.

how i wish i could get really drunk
i would be happy then
for then i could express my self freely
without the restriction of fear and logic


*this may not be the the end of the line
but my patience has a limit
do us a favour and dont be so selfish
for when the time comes you wont see me in your life ever


here's a vid

artist: Breaking Benjamin
title: The Diary of Jane








*Birthday Message To Yvonne:

first things first happy birthday !
finally 16
sorry things didnt turn out the way you wanted today
but hey shit happens
i'm glad you stayed out with us

hope to see you during my birthday celebration
we shall have loads of fun !
(: